goodbye 2013

           Last year has been so much fun and colourful to be left. And i bet this year will be much much more colourful. In my 20-ies i have already know the tricks and games of homo-sapiens. That what 2013 had taught me. But then again getting through the years has left a few sad sad and sad moments of resentful,sorrows and pain. Getting through college is much much more than what i had thought before. 


          But screw all that, im getting a new year resolutions here ! >.< It is just maybe i am absolutely tired of making a "okay thats fine" face plastered on my face everytime. And i know one thing for sure, in my twenties, i shall promise myself to wouldnt let anything crossed my way in getting something done. Well its not really a "crossed" chaotic way though. For a girls perspective is, i promise myself to not let anything to ruined my mood or my plan. Well, its normal to include someone in your plan but then its turnout that she/he is not up to your plan at all ! Its okay to backed out at the very last minute of anything. Its just maybe im not enough ready for contingency . Thats one need to be fix for sure lady.

        And i shall celebrating individuality more nowdays. Accepting the difference and make way for a decent comments. Ah ha ha . thats so fake , can i be such a saint . But come on, this is new year resolution anyway. I can write all this crap but trying those in a really slooowwwly manner.hihhi . 

       This is just the time for me to seriously taking money-planning and menabung into account. I have dreamt about getting a car for so much years. And yet every penny on my efforts seems so useless. My small business and few jobs isnt getting in the way. So i shall get serious into this.

        But afterall, all i want is to be completely happy and having no regrets in life.

 ala bizikrillahi tatmainnal quloob "Verily, in the remembrance of Allah swt do hearts find rest"



       
 

transitions

And i thought modernism is just enough to create the unity in design...

But fret not it has a lot more than that to argue. And  unsangkarably, i have come to the minutes where i realise the late modernism architect such as Le Corb etc has same flaws which we the homo sapiens of 2020 had unintentionally repeating what they already did years ago.

oh by the way, im taking theory of design as a subject this semester. So no wonder la im talking SERIOUS theory mind blowing talk kaan HAHA. Well, the time has comes to be so critical in design to not to just solving the site problem, but creating a new culture of doing. I really wish i could did that someday.

But having said that, i am silently argumenting about this cultural issues. Is culture is a means of doing where we HAVE to preserve or it is just like a historical developement where it comes and go. hmmmm....im going mad . 

-tergantung- 

ponders

seeing you,
i keep having thoughts..
that i would have been in that coat , in that shoes and in that crowd.
somehow it looks better in that picture.
and why would i compare yours to mine ??
i should have just flip it over and buried it deep..
but somehow i want to see how it colours
so i keep on seeing those with a slightly bit of regrets.
erm....

and i have decided to keep em in still
and let em to be just the way it is
to let me live
with more sense of appreciation in life...
to let me colours with gratitude
to let me walk with honesty
and to let me speak modestly

as i colours , it is more than what meets the eyes.




p/s : eh ai dah pandai berpuisi pulak >.<


salesgirl ?


hi aha thats me.
I maybe looks older than my age.
Maybe because of the dressing and etc.Aaaaand to tell you what, ive been approached by many salesgirl/boy promoting their product telling me stories how to get slim,facial treatment and many more.
And today, two salesgirl stopped me from my way and keep telling stories about their products. Kelab Nutrisi pebendethah. Unfortunately, i failed to escape this time. So they dragged me to their mini shop and tell me how this nutrisi could really help people. 

So the 'Nutrisi' thing is about makanan tambahan which they offered me to come by and have 3 drinks which is Nutrisi 1 , Nutrisi 2, and Nutrisi 3 . And it is not like herbalife of anything , it just we come, pay rm16 and get the drinks. So i asked , why not just sell the products ? x payah nk datang, bayar 16 hengget and minum dekat situ.. So they answered because every Nutrisi consumer will have a trainer so it will worked more effectively. Like you a teacher somehow lah. Okay bolehlaaa kut...But i am not convinced enough so i just tell them that i cant drink any pelik2 taste punya drink. Nanti muntah blablablabla

On my way back, i just realised how weird they are. Macam too friendly kot. Yelah eventhough salesgirl mestila friendly kaaaaan...they are all chinese but practically, all of their gesture is some sort like a terlalu berbudi bahasa.....where we would shake hands, cium pipi2 peluk blablabla...erm weird. peluk kuat2 pulak tu HAHA. And they keep telling this word "bersyukur" . Sounds weird to me. Bersyukur is some sort like a muslim word to describe there are very thankful for the bless they have. I dont know, but usually non muslim wouldnt really use the word "bersyukur" kan ? entah . macam contohnya-Saya dah guna 2 bulan dan saya bersyukur Nutrisi dapat bantu masalah sembelit saya.
And bad thoughts is overwhelming me baq hang ! HAHA entah2 die bagi kita teguk holy water ke kaaaan...who knows >.< Yeah this maybe some sort like a random assumption, but could be true kot...I just hope people out there will really beware with anything that comes in contact with you. 
Homaaaai i sound like mom kan ? pffft 

And some funny story too , today my brother and i went to a mall and a guy approached us holding a paper and pen macam petition gitew. He asked us to sign the petition where they are collecting signature of people who believes that our PLANET MARIKH is kekurangan udara . WTH was that kaaan ? HAHAHA we really laugh all the way doh ! 
And eventually we found out that it is some sort like a tv program where the guy have some sort like a challenge to do. Phewww, thank god there is still normal people on the earth !

Thats all for the records, kisah2 salesgirl dan salesboy yall !
meet again,bubye :)

oh btw, i skrg ada bibit2 nk jd tauke jual shawl tauu >.< 
bibit2 ok.
baq hang penggunaan tatabahasa diaaa guna bibit2 ! 
LOL 

Tears

Tears is one hell of a thing where i cant see when it will really hit me.
It comes and wont stop easily....
lagi2 bila drawing sendiri ditumpahkan air,
"KESILAPAN TEKNIKAL" lah sangat -.-' and etc

And for an "unsangkarable" reasons,it comes and go...
hit and leave....
flow and gone......
And that one thing that we needed most.
is a hiding place.
And of course a tissue.

And lets just hope we will be strong as the time hit us one day.
Good day.
Salam

sekolah

saya sekarang masih bersekolah.
Sekolah harkitekturrr sekudai namanya.
Kalau nak tahu,sekolah saya ni hari sekolah senin ngn jumaat jeww
yelah senin and jumaat design dari pagi sampei ptg 8credit baq hang.
hari2 lain amacm holiday siket.
holidey tapi banyak kerja sekolah.
dan sekarang kerja sekolah saya x siap lagi..
besok memang x sekolah tapi kerja sekolah x siap lagi

tp kdg2 mcm saya sekolah hari2
haktuih
lantak pi hang
kbai

How i met the doctor

i feel very sick today so i decided to go to the clinic, get a mc and sleep sleep sleep to recover my fever. BUT today is monday submission day ! so i have to go to the studio dulu pin up my drawings etc before leaving with my plan.

And for the record, first time in my life, i sleep early on the night of assessment day uoulsss ! HAHA amazing spiderman kaaaan ? >.< not really early,but i manage to finished my drawing around 1.30 am and stuck in front of the computer editing my computerised introductory story. Kene hantar jugak tu hokay introductory tuu....
So i macam dah sakit kepala gila temperature rise,not on mood,i decided to just go to sleep at 2am. Lantaklah tu besok je sambung.

And luckily,i woke up early as 6 realising i only have few hours left to finish editing.tup tap tup tap pukul 8.45 chow pegi kedai printing.print segala bagaaaaai with my half heavy head and badan pun panas.

9am
Ingatkan nak pin up pastu terus chow, lecturer i datang studio lah pulak pagi2 ni......aiseeyyy..lalu bermulalah kisah kritik mengkritik drawing alkisahnye....dan best lah pulak i kene touch up my drawing rendering balik. Ini semua sebab LILY yang render pekat gila tuuuu...But i am soo lucky to have my drawing correctly drawn.The angle blablabla. A few of my friends kene RE-DRAW kot ! sebab slah draw terbalik.haish bersyukur kehadrad ilahi my mind is working well walaupun buat bersin2 malas2.

1pm
finally finished rendering. Hamik kau lama siak nk render semua.

Go on with my plan petang ni langsung xnk pergi studio dah. Xnk attend assessment.

So i went to the pusat kesihatan universiti to amek antibiotik lah konon. Padahal shira dah cakap dah haritu antibiotik utk bacteria bukan virus macam demam ni...manalah aku tahu kaaan ak bukannya medical student to classify my case demam batuk selsema ni tahap bakteria or virus...so i tanpa segan silu ckp dekat doktor...

I: doc x boleh kasi sy antibiotik ke ? sy demam karang lama ni...dari hari jumaat.
D: mana ada lama baru 4 hari.

BARU 4 HARI ??????

ive been through hell working on my works in demam state kut -.-'

boleh pulak doctor tu gelakkan eden sebab mintak difflam as my throat lozeng. Die cakap difflam mahal, diorang bagi dequadin je...

Rasa macam bengang pulak.Malaysia boleh bagi beriban2 dekat boucher buku , rebate smartphone tp refuse to provide good medicine to his people ? Clarinase pun bagi severe strength je...

Bukan nak cakap ape,boucher buku tu mmg perlu,tapi mana ada orang nk beli buku ori..semua pakat photostat je...

sabaar jelah...

And that, is how i met the doctor






random

out of no-where,i want to be a writer..a journalist maybe.

mood : demam. kawan saya bakal doktor kata ini mungkin sebab stress -.-'

"bumi mana yang tidak ditimpa hujan"....course mana yang tak ditimpa stress.

seh.ki.an

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In the Realm of Kindergarten Chats

Thanks to you....
To you,the one that brought me here...
Here where i get to see the world in an unique view..
Very unique.Indeed

Through high and low we go...
Keep walking to the end even i dont know when i will finally reach there..
Could i really get through the thorns,cuts and bruises ?
Who knows...
Wallahualam.

They really talks deep.
Really deep where i absolutely know that is hell no.Not my level.
Even though my level is not at par where i could really see what they really meant yet.
It may require the eye of a poet kut which is faaaaaar beyond a pair of my recently formed panda eyes -.-' sobs sobs
But never fear, because i believe i will get there someday.Inshallah
The exposition will take time....

You manage to moved me.
Thanks to YOU.
Alhamdulillah.

p/s : PAM will be visiting us this year.Oh no ! Oh no ! Oh noooooooo !



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